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SoI Decided Today That I Am Done With Maybe's!!!

No More:
-Maybe Ill Spend My Money On This Shirt
-Maybe Ill Use My Money On This Instead Of This
-Maybe Ill Loose Weight
-Maybe Ill Save Money
-Maybe Ill Go Away With My Friends
-Maybe ill Go Out With The Girls
-Maybe Ill Call This Person Just To Say Hi!
-Maybe its Ok To See My Old Friends
-Maybe Its Ok To Do Noting About It
-Maybe Its Ok T Miss Them Alot..
-Maybe I Should StopSaying Maybe And Just Do Sumthing About It

For All Of My Maybe's That I Said .......... I Am Sorry

So what have i been up to Lately:
School ( Tuesday To Saturday Till Aug 12 06)
Work (Monday Nights)
Time With Cody (Twice A Month)
Gym (When I Can)
Friends (Maybe One A Month)
yeah so not a hole lot..

-To All Thoese Friends Who I Dont Talk To Or Who I Say Ill Call And Never Do......

IM SORRY...& I Love You All

I Really Do Miss You I MIss Having A Life And More Important Having Friends.....

-Katrina

just letting Everyone know that i am not dead and that i have not forgoted about you all,just i do not have a computer and well not have one for the next month or so ...

but i have to go now bye bye xoxo

Its been awhile since i have writen in this so i figured its about time,
things are going pretty good right now im pretty happy,i appriciate my friends that i have and i am thanksful for the friend that i have back in my life (i wove you),so my birthday is tomorrow kinda excited except i have to go get my id beacuse i dont have a drivers license so i better get that tomorrow at some point.and i better get my licends some time thins week i have too..im getting fusterated with my self*

i finally feel like im ready to do sumthing with my life i have started applying to places in Halifax in Moncton and in Montreal im kinda excited about all three places i think o matter what it well all be amazing!!

well i think thats all the news i have for now! ttyl bye bye

Oh and sarah call me soon please..i have tried calling you for the past two days lol !

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So This is my Time To Bitch And Be Sad
I realized today that everyone is doing something with there life.Eather its going to school or working full time or traviling somwhere.and everyone is so busy me and meaghann are always saying that we are going to hang out but it never happends we always cry when we see each other but for some reason that i dont know about....it never happends.Jonathan whom i havent talk to since christmas i believe he is probly busy with school and his g/f,because he use to call every two weeks but i can understand why he has not called.i don't even hang out with the ppl that are here i mean i hang out with shamus and adam and wade,but i mean i dont hang out with Shauna,Shannon,Nicole or even Sarah,i guess its just how things are going to work.
I feel like i am doing nothing with my life i am working 3 days 4 times a work..Mon,Wed,Fri Morning & Monday Night..i don't know if i want to go to school or even where i want to go to school,i don't know if i wanna get a place or my own and know i can handle being on my own before,i want to go to school.but mom wants me to go to schhol first but i need to get out of my house i need to get out thats said how i wnat to get out of my house that bad..i need to figure alot out now don't I.i hope i figure it all out soon.
Me and cody just had our 8 months yesterday God thats a long time we made it this far wow
I don't even see Him that much latly,I have seen him once a week,It's Like jessie is his other g/f he always wants cody to go home even if he has only been here for a day good i hate that another this is we are never alone,don't get me wrong i love thoese guys and all but he is my boyfriend,i like my time with him ..i love my time with him,i know im about to sound so gurly but i think he knows me better then i know me and i don't even care i can tell him about anything no matter what i can cry and not feel like a big baby,cause everyone knows that girls have to cry everyonce and awhile.He just is so important to me.
So Valintines Day is soon me and cody are not doing anything big i think we might just be together and watch movies and such,i guess we will figure it out when it comes.
Well thats it untill i write again ..bye

To Meghann

I Miss You Like Whoa.. I Hate That I Missed You When You Came To My House...I Hate That You Are Sad And I Am Not There To Be Sad With You...I Hate That I Don't Know Anything About You Life Right Now...Just What I Read On This...I Hate That You Wont Be There To Help Me Walk(On The Ice)...I Hate The Snow Is Comming And We Can't Go For Walk...I Hate That Everytime "I Sing I Stay Wrected And Jelous And For This..For The Simple Reason I"..That Reminds Me Of You..To Sum It Up I Miss You...

I havn't been up to very much latley work then hang out with ppl then work then hang out with ppl then work again... but i havnt seen shannon since last weds that makes me soo sad she is such a busy girl and i miss hanging out with her ....i am at work now i have been here only an hour.

shauna and i went on an adventure today we got our tounge peirced
we took the bus with cody,shamus and justin to dartmouth to merchant maries (sp),shauna got me to go first and of course i couldn't complain because she payed for it.. so i did it and it didnt hurt very much,it hurt more after then when i got it done.

cody has spent the past two nights at my house do you knwo how happy that makes me feel i love that boy so much i have never felt like this ever and i mean ever....i mean we get in our fights but who doesn't

so this weekend should be weird i dont kwno what is going on but it should be different.

bye bye for now xoxox

Happy Birthday Jason!

My Little Brother Is Growing Up!
He Is 15 Now!!

Tonight We are just having a little thing supper out or in he has not decided yet,with the family and cody and i think krystal..(Grrr)
then some cake then presents ,then who knows.

I Love You Cody With All My Heart

i feel so sick to my tummy,sick of people running their mouth on this livejournal thing ...do you think it makes you tough..i think it just makes you chicken...

And YOU.....i havent talked to you since that day you called me..i didnt think you or one wnated me to call you...and you know what i dont think the fighting is worth it anymore,yes we had a good friendship....we did fight alot ...for fuck, i feel like we were in a realationship more then a friendship ...i dont know what to say to you i dont even know what to do....So You hate me well i guess there is nothing i can do about that...now can i

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I just realized today that i havn't seen shannon in like 4 days or so we have been trying to hang out but we are both so busy,man this sucks.
Yesterday was a yucky day i went to work at 11 and i was sick the whole time...it sucked then i came home and slept for a bit then shamus called me and he came to get me i was still not feeling to good but i took some drugs so i knew i was going to feel better soon they got high and i stayed and watched lol....then shauna and i were hungry so we decide to go get some food at Mickey D's .Megan & Smash meet us there Shash was wearing Stileto's it was so weird that didnt look right but you sure could get use to here wearing them!I havnt seen thoese girls in so long i think since like the middle of the summer.we left them and i got a phone call from a person i have missed so much well two people karan and shane i asked shamus if he would drive me to go see them and of course he did,i didnt belive how much i missed them untill i say them karan is only here till friday then he is going back home, so me and shamus talked to them for a bit then they decided they wanted to go get drunk So we went to se Brian then they took me home cause i wanted to go home i was bored...what ealse do i got to say..Tomorrow i have no work at all i am so excited,plus i get paid tomorrow good money too!..but i should go now bye bye
I Love You

I Work Almost everyday this week i worked:
Monday night 6-8
Tuesday 11-4:30
Wed Night 4:30-9:30
Thursday Thank God day off
Friday 9am-9pm
Saturday Day Off --Excitment
Sunday 8-4

I got amazing news yesterday
Jonathan is comming home for a couple of days i am so excited i missed that kid sooo much! i just cant wait to see him on saturday!!

I did what Joanne asked me to do!
This is what she thinks of me :oh Katrina, I miss you too dude but you seem to be so happy with Cody and im happy for you. You're super uber nice, and you always were the greatest necklaces and i miss seeing you everyday man!! its so wierd when you see a person daily for thirteen years and then you're just gone. Oh Trina, I miss your perfect bags too. And aj was fun with you... crazy greasy slut.. yeah thats right hows it feel? ha ha just kidding, you rock my world and you can do anything you put your mind to, dont settle for any less than you deserve!!
Do i ever miss that girl ....iv seen here everyday since primary and now i never see her its soo sad :(

Well im going to go lay down not feeling too good
I Love You Cody!!

Moving out is getting closer and closer to happening i just need to find another job im thinking at a clothing store that would be good for me.I like cloths, Today we went looking at apptment there were some nice ones and some not so nice ones,the one on walker was the first one we looked at and its the one we loved the best its really nice not too small at all,i really enjoyed it,i think we all did the only problem is that they need 12 postdated cheques,and that it's already had some lookers already,but is a nice place i can see us leaving there....weird

Today- Im hanging out with shauna were going to watch movies like the good old days!
who knows what we are going to do tonight?
Shannon works till 10...again...grrr lol oh well
Tomorrow i think the girls (me,nicole and shauna) are going out for lunch/supper tomorrow..we dont know were yetwe will think of a place

-Man i really love that boy of mine i mean he can be a pain but he is my pain,on Monday it will only be 3 months it feels like so much longer..Lets Just Say Im Happy-

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You all know how cody has been living at my house for like a month,well my parents told us on tuesday that he had two weeks to find another place to leave,i was so hurt and sad that i didn't even know what to do,he decided to go to his cousins in Springfeild lake Soo Far...,From Weds-Fri i have been having crying spills yeah i know its stupid but when you spend everyday with someone since you have been together...(we only have spent two weeks apart thats when i was in quebec) Its hard even to spend a day apart from each other...THIS SUCKS and i dont even knwo if he going to go to school so i might not even see him a lunch time ..this is going to be weird..

I pretty much lost my job they took shifts away from me, they said i was absent too much so i think that means suspention but you know what i dont wanna be there at all anymore they have there mind made up of what i am and who i am..... so fuck this bull im not even giving them a two week notice im quitting this is all bull and im already so stressed out i have to find another job like this week if i wanna move out in november or in a bit..

i realized that now im not going to have verymany friends anymore i mean i only reason most ppl invited me out was cause of cody,im going to have my one friend shannon,who i didnt get to see yesterday Grrr ,and today she has skating at 11 and 6 so what im i going to do today who knows..

i going to go now bye

Thursday: so i didnt get to hang out with cody and was i ever pissed.....
mom thought it would cheer me up if we went shopping so i went and brought back my pants & changed the size of cody's shirt then looked around for some cloths i didnt find anything ..that sucked but i was excited cause i forgot that shannon was working and that made my night! cause i got to see her!
Friday: i worked 9-8 i got off early causemy brother was having a fit long story dont really wanna get back into it but it was intersting.. shannon picked me up from work ..it was good to see here then we meet up with the guys and chilled with them untill we went and met my brother ..then we went home at 10:30 all in all it was and ok night!
Saturday:i spent the day with cody yeah !!! then he went out with justin and shamus and them and i went babysitting i was supose to be done by 10 and they didnt come home till 12 of well i injoy thoese kids!
Today working till 4 then maybe around with shannon
bye bye
xox